Tuesday
May172005
It is Officially Official
Tuesday, May 17, 2005 at 06:37PM
Did I ever mention to you guys that M2 had an uncanny ability to save his own ass at the last minute - without actually knowing that he was in a position to have to save it?
Well, he could.
In the last few months, he's become someone I don't like, can't relate to and don't want to talk to while agreeing with me that he wasn't happy with how things were going either. I had decided to make one last attempt at some sort of interaction between us and was actually about 24 hours from just walking away, without even a goodbye.
So, if today you suddenly got this eye-popping psychic flash of Jen rolling about on the floor in her office at 2 pm shrieking in frustration, well - it'd be safe to assume that today - he pulled his bad self so utterly gracefully out of the goddamn fire that I was speechless. Except for the shrieking.
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm glad he did. I love him, that's never been in question, and missing him doesn't mean I'm unhappy but I don't want him completely gone from my life and frankly, I was starting to question whether the boy I loved actually ever existed at all. I was seriously beginning to question my own sanity.
(okay, that just made me *snort*)
Maybe it's better to say, I was beginning to question whether or not I could ever trust my own instincts and /or feelings ever again if I had been so wrong about something so deep in the core of my being.
So, yes, verra glad, ladies and gents.
But on the ground. Shrieking.
Well, he could.
In the last few months, he's become someone I don't like, can't relate to and don't want to talk to while agreeing with me that he wasn't happy with how things were going either. I had decided to make one last attempt at some sort of interaction between us and was actually about 24 hours from just walking away, without even a goodbye.
So, if today you suddenly got this eye-popping psychic flash of Jen rolling about on the floor in her office at 2 pm shrieking in frustration, well - it'd be safe to assume that today - he pulled his bad self so utterly gracefully out of the goddamn fire that I was speechless. Except for the shrieking.
Now, don't get me wrong, I'm glad he did. I love him, that's never been in question, and missing him doesn't mean I'm unhappy but I don't want him completely gone from my life and frankly, I was starting to question whether the boy I loved actually ever existed at all. I was seriously beginning to question my own sanity.
(okay, that just made me *snort*)
Maybe it's better to say, I was beginning to question whether or not I could ever trust my own instincts and /or feelings ever again if I had been so wrong about something so deep in the core of my being.
So, yes, verra glad, ladies and gents.
But on the ground. Shrieking.
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