Accomplishing Nothing. But Trying really Hard Nonetheless.

I've just spent the entire day either in the library or online watching about 800 things in Ebay - and I'm proud to say, rejecting the ones that went over my self-imposed limit.

But very little time checking up on the web or thinking of witty things to say. My apologies. Can I just say though, in my defense?, I'm STILL happy with my choices. A little overwhelmed and scared shitless.... but... HAPPY!

Yes. Following my heart. It worked. I just need to get to the point where I truly believe that my heart knows best and the point where I can not just admit when I'm not following it but do something about it more often than not.

BUT! I must buy a cheap MP3 player and an Olympus Digital camera (because that doesn't require testing - I already know what I want).

Backpack, today, provided by Tony. Who rocks.

Smiles and inspiration provided by Chrissykins and "Eureka". I love you, woman! And our noses! Even though, on the inside, they're all funny!

Nutrition provided by the 'pepperoni' sticks thawing in my microwave - no toxins, no preservatives, no steriods - our little farm fed and bled.

Snoring, because nothing is really that frantic, provided by Cabot, asleep and drooling on my leg.

was it too much to ask for you to take my side
cause there's nothing here to defend
when it's always me
that you blame in the end

Last Day Dawning

I just had a thought - if I get the website address printed on t-shirts and mugs or whatever then at some point I totally have to add some thong underwear to the 'collection' because really.....

www.getsoutmore.com

hahahahahaha. It's bloody perfect.

I stopped on my way home tonight to buy three sets of scrubs for the new job and although I have 15 hours of work to JAM in tomorrow over 7 hours - IT IS MY LAST DAY!

she says my ass hurts
when i sit down
she says my feet hurt
from just standing around
i think my body is as restless as my mind

This Made Me Laugh All Day

When I said, "So, like, how do I get to the farm? I can just rent a car or something but you know, I get lost easy."

The response was, It's almost impossible to get lost on the way to the farm... oh, wait - YOU'RE the girl who told me she lived at 1334 - 13th Ave and forced me to use my cell phone to call from Calgary to Australia back to Calgary to determine that the place you owned and had lived in for 2 years was actually on 12th and I was 100 ft away from it? I'll pick you up."

"I insist."

Honestly, I think HE's the freaky one for still remembering the right 'wrong' streets 18 months later, he was only there ONCE. I would have forgotten in 30 seconds or less.

Actually... hey! who are you people? How'd you get in here? Did I leave the door open again?

I.AM.SO.EXCITED.

Er. Yeah. *thud*

ahhhh! I can't believe I did this!

I leave October 9th through Vancouver and LA, arriving in Melbourne on the 11th then leave Sydney on November 2 to fly through San Fran home.

The only things I have to figure out now are...

# 1) how long to stay in Melbourne - if I can go down to wherever they are and see Matt's parents and pick their brains for info (they spent a long time travelling around Aus - good advice for my drive around the country!!!) or if I'm just going to end up amusing myself in Melbourne for a bit before heading on

# 2) whether or not I should fly into Sydney the day before. I'm getting the feeling that 24 or 48 hours in Sydney will be pointless wasted time if I'm coming back there later - it's not like I have to jam it all in, right? I think I'll end up flying in the day my flight leaves to come home.

It will be a very long few days, that travelling. Especially since on each end I've got a bus and a ferry and a bus and then a car ride to finally get home.

Cabot's already 'spoken' for and if he's acceptable, he's got somewhere to live forever.

One of the main things of this trip is to totally go with the flow and 'practice' for the long-haul so I'm trying not to plan anything (this is actual TORTURE for me, people). TORTURE.

Tim'll be picking me up at the airport in Perth and taking me back out to the farm so I can get my bearings and decide what I want to do. I'll more than likely see if I can help out around the farm and then wander off to rent a car and do some driving / camping and then hopefully, Jeff'll be around to let me crash on his couch for a few days in Perth as well (he's working fly-in at the mines). Peaches, they are.

So, any cheap Perth and surrounding area suggestions would be welcomed, as well as Melbourne stuff to do / stay in case I'm not seeing Matt's parents.

And, no, I have no plans to see Matt. The question is not for me to ask. I've decided not to cause myself more hurt by waiting for a truth (any truth) he can't / won't provide. He can choose as well, though, and the choice to see each other while I'm there - will be his. Not mine. I've no objection, really. It's hard to explain, I guess.

You're welcome to start a pool, if you like, but I doubt the odds are good - on either end.

I'm not flying most of the way around the world to see my un-interested ex-boyfriend. I *would* be, probably, if he'd chosen differently 8 months ago but really, I'm going there for five reasons...

One - 12 months of not smoking present, recovery from accident gift to myself.
Two - It's Australia for god's sake.
Three - Preliminary long distance travel before the 'real' thing - that's valid.
Four - I miss the boys, I miss Tim.
Five - because I can do whatever the hell I want!

I have slug-licking pictures (finally!) from Yeti (Jeff) and should probably throw up a couple pictures of them both but for now - I ONLY HAVE TWO MORE DAYS OF WORK! - so I need to go enjoy that.

Give me 24 hours and I can make *anything* perfectly reasoned out and even, quite brilliant

So, the burning question of the day is .... how do you really PREPARE to give up everything you are / have / own and then travel for a couple of years / indefinitely? How do you pick up and go knowing that you'll even make it through the first six months in Costa Rica and Ecuador?

WELL, you take a "preliminary" trip.

You borrow a laptop. You borrow a backpack. Pick up a bunch of cheap electronics. Have a t-shirt made.

Then you leave. And test. And blog.

In a place where there are actually people who may pull your ass out of the fire in a crisis.

Well, or not. But at least I'll be in a country where I know people and I have relatives the next country over (New Zealand).

But, whatever. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. Stop looking at me like that. No, I mean it. Quit rolling your eyes, it's very unattractive.

And after yelling at T3's dad over a bit of a bad connection last night, I have received a text msg indicating harvest is Dec/Jan (and I quote) "if you can stand the heat". Pshaw.

That's way too far away though - I'd like to be there earlier than that. Like next week. JUST KIDDING! I'm pretty damn impatient, though. I'm thinking mid-October. Again, though, I will know more after I wake myself up at the ungodly hour of 5 am to call Mr. CharmyCharmSmartmouth tomorrow morning.

You Know It Makes Sense.

So, flight and car for four nights in Calgary was $500. It's like a 90 minute flight.

Then I looked at Raleigh, NC. That was $800 for the flight for a week but I was betting I could make Jen,also drive me around because I love her and that's a powerful lotta good mojo to have around you for a week - covers off the price of gas, you know...

Then, just for a giggle, I looked at Australia.

You know, when you extrapolate it to, say, a month - well then it just makes the BEST SENSE TO GO THERE. ASAP. STAT. (well, okay, in 8 weeks or so)

It's not like I have a job I have to be at. In my jammies. When they ask nicely if I want to work. Man, I love this! After this last four days, I have the best life ever!

Anyways, no final decisions yet but I'm hoping I can stop over in London to see some of you bums but I won't know more until tomorrow. Sheesh, today'd be worth it just for the amount of excitement I caused myself! Can you tell how 'cited I made myself? I think I might have had a seizure right about the time I thought to myself, "Well, fuck it, I may as well just GO!" Wheeeeeeeee!

So... you gonna be around?

The Important Thing That Science Taught Me Today

The number one way to cool down a six pack of beer to 35 degrees farenheit (roughly 2 degrees celcius) the fastest is to blow a fire extinguisher into the eskie so ice forms, then leave it for three minutes.

Number two is to fill the eskie with ice, water and TABLE SALT - five minutes. (no, I don't know how much. I missed that part - outside picking blackberries)

The rest? Ice and water @ 15 minutes. Ice only @ 25 minutes. Freezer @ a honkin' 30 minutes.

I feel I've accomplished something today since I did absolutely nothing else. So, not bad for a Sunday. And hey! Interesting trivia to impress the boys with! Next time I surrounded by men with warm beer. ha.

Five more days of work. Five days of all the things I've been putting off. Five days of shitty jobs and cleanup and crap. But..... five days! Tis a beautiful thing.